Assalamu 'alaykum wa rahamtullahi wa barakatuhu.

After a short hiatus, I have noted a great disservice facing the Xanga community.  Like  some of you Xanga readers out there, a friend of mine thought I had wrote something out of bounds, and chose to apologize on my behalf.  But quite frankly, I don't believe that apology was at all necessary.  HOWEVER, I do still have an apology that needs posting, and this for my fear of absolute commitment to my deen. 

Apprehension of waking up early for fajr led me to post the number of another, deducting that if I am too afraid to help myself, why not aid another member of the muslim community?

So IN ACTUALITY, the phone holder of the number I posted should be gracious for my attempt to bring them closer to Allah (SWT).  In the circumstance that you already wake up for fajr, as a good, slave of The Lord, you should respond to all those who attempted to aid you in your ritual praying endeavors with greatfulness. You could have said, "Thank you oh brother or sister of Islam, for helping me where The Lord has already graciously helped me."

If the post for any reason upset you, as one hadith quotes, "If you are angry and you are standing, sit down, and if you are still angry lie down."  I realize lying down may make if difficult to see your computer screen between namaazes, but insha'allah, The Lord will help you accomplish both.

AS FOR ALL THOSE who were upset by the post, such as LT786, do not be upset.  I sense you may be angered by the fact that your number was not posted to help you wake up for fajr.  Do not fear LT. I will help you. No need to thank me.

Yesterday something occured to me as I was driving. My blood started to almost boil when a really slow driver in front of me would not let me pass. Later on I wondered what it was about me that caused that instant angry reaction... A scenario might provide some insight....

I hurt my foot...

After posting the apology the following were the comments that people left:

don't i get an apology?

Posted 4/2/2005 at 1:05 AM by akbersaeed

i second saeed's question... ….

Posted 4/2/2005 at 1:18 AM by Szahee2

hello wut about a random guys picture! seriously, i feel like a whore

Posted 4/2/2005 at 2:47 AM by akbersaeed

I find this so humorous and entertaining! It is interesting to read that akbersaeed writes that he feels "like a whore" because I posted his picture on my Xanga titled "FOB of the Month!" I did exactly the same thing as akber does to many other RANDOM guys; i.e. he takes pictures of random people and bashes them on his web log.  Did I not do the same? Huh?

Why do you think I owe you an apology? Akber, you thought it was soooo damn funny to post other people’s pictures on your site and call them FOB’s and now when the joke’s on you, you can’t take it?

Lastly, why is Szahee2 getting so worked up about it? Tabzz zzz is he your brother? uncle? cousin?

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Assalamu 'alaykum wa rahamatullahi wa barakatuhu.

I wrote something inappropriate earlier.  I have offended couple people due to my last post. I truly didn’t mean harm to anyone from that post. I felt bad the moment I read the chatterbox. Lt786 made me feel worse and I am ashamed of putting a random person’s phone number on my Xanga. My utmost apologies to kareem99.

I am the resistor with greater resistance; when put in series the resistance increases. - Manic Depressive

So the question for me with regard to the above is, "In what context?" One of my friends might ask "With guys?" Hmmm....No! I  think in the language of Physics. Duh! (lol) I was thinking about the thought processes that lead me to think at all, especially when it comes to writing stuff here on this Xanga. I mean, .........OKAY moving on.........

Now, i've been seeing all these posts that all these other Islamic peepz have been writing on Xanga and I've learned something very significant....

I'm not all that Islamic! My iman has hit freakin' rock bottom by being stuck out here in this infernal university where I just see too much jahalat all the time. I will see a girl pass by and not even recognize her cuz I'm thinkin' "oh that's just some white non-Muslim chick" and then I do a double take when they wave at me and I realize this midriff baring, tight white capri-wearing bacchi with an even tighter t-shirt and plunging neckline is a friend I'd known for the last four years! And that's not all, this girl is purportedly Muslim!!!! "So okay, I reason, maybe Iman is all in one's heart right? It don't matter what you look like on the outside so long as ur strong in iman deep inside", OR.... 

is it that your iman is just REALLY deep down inside where I will never see it?  I've seen this all the time for the last several years that I've been at this school and it's been eating away at me! Why is it that the brothers are talking about improving their iman and I don't see enough of this same discussion amongst the sisters??!! I mean all those introspective posts on how one's iman should be stronger or better.... I'm just not on that wavelength people! Basically, my iman has been so ravaged, I should be stripped of my Muslim name!..

So I've been thinking...what I need is some help from people who know what they're talking about...some people who can give me tips on improving my faith to bring it back to where it ought to be...and  I've decided that starting from tomorrow, insha'allah, I will wake up for tahajjud and then get up again for fajr!!!!

Also, at the same time, I felt that this would be a prime opportunity for other Muslims to increase their iman. Would you like to take advantage of this? You could do so and totally for FREE!! (no donations, or expensive contributions of your time..) All you have to do is help out another Muslim...

So all I ask you is to help a Muslim out by waking me up for the one thing I aim to do tomorrow.. Call me to WAYYYYKE UP!!!! (and say it just like that...it helps) @ 4:15 am or, whatever time one of you wakes up for tahajjud or fajr. Jazak allahu khairan jaza.  

Oh wait I forgot, my cell #: (426) 555 -7679

Here are some incoming matrimonials:

1) 33 year old medical doctor, looks for a hot wife. Sorry, no wheat skinned larkis.

2) Your wife's my baby mama!!

3) Help me find a man! I'm a sad, lonely fob!!!

4) 5'3" indian man looks for a supermodel wife. call me @ 630-348-6277 (He's waiting 4 U ladies!!!!)

5) FIND ME A RICH HUSBAND!!!! <e.g. akber saeed>

6) Do your clothes always smell from cooking masala? Come work for us!!

            ~ Banda-E-Nawaz (Dining & Entertainment)

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